…Well thats what I’ve been hearing anyway. It’s no secret Ive been in a rut this summer, but its not because Im changing. Sure, Im getting older, a bit wiser and Im more focused on my future now more than Ive ever been, but Im still me.
I’ve spent years hoping, wishing and dreaming that the day would come where I could change something I didnt like about myself, and when that day came I wasted no time. I worked my ass off to achieve my goal and I reached it, just like I thought I would. But recently that goal I worked soo hard to achieve and all the progress i made slowly started to fade away taking my confidence with it. Im just now starting to get back to the old me (or should I say the new and improved me) but it takes time.
I put my faith in the wrong people, trusting them when they said they’d be there to the end , no matter what. But I realize now who really cares, and their the same people that have been in my ass these past few months about getting my act together. Lol. && I owe it to them to be a better friend. This girl that Ive been the last few months isn’t me, it’s who I felt I had to be to protect myself from the judgment of others, that would notice my setback. I love my friends some of them Ive known since those days when I was down in the gutter, i’ll need them when Im on top of the world..Well New York anyway Lol
