I’ve decided that I’m going to be the absolute BITCH that some people expect me to be. && make no mistake; this isn’t me changing to justify ANYTHING. This IS and has always been one of many sides to my personality. It just takes a lot to get me to this point. The point where I really DON’T GIVE A SHIT!!! I’ve given some people SOOOO many chances, and I have been SOOOO patient, I’ve tolerated SOOOO much and from people who didn’t deserve it, not one bit. People who if the roles were reversed and it were me that kept fucking up, I wouldn’t have gotten the same chances.
It has come to my attention that apparently some people find me intimidating. I’m not sure if it’s really me or some of these guys are just cowards, or maybe its guilt. Because if a person truly took the time to get to know me, they would know how to speak to me (if they wanted too). So if you’re having a problem contemplating that….go figure.
Regardless, the point I’m trying to make is that if certain people expect me to be a bitch why not give them what they want. Right? I honestly feel as if I have nothing left to lose. For one person in particular, I especially feel that way. Relationship? I’ve been tested for soo long && I just couldn’t take it anymore, I deserve better than how I was being treated. DONE. Friendship? I’ve tried that (more than once), but apparently that’s not wanted and I don’t kiss ass for it. Especially from someone who’s put me through so much. I mean, I’m good at the friendship thing, I think. What I consider The MOST COMPLICATED AND PAINFUL relationship/situation I’ve ever been in ended a little over a year ago, and today he’s literally the best guy friend I’ve ever had. Just sayin. But hey, I can take a hint. DONE… && as for Respect? It’s clear that respect for me and my feelings went out the door long before the relationship or friendship EVER did. Soo, DONE! Gave it everything I could possibly give and I still got shitted on, why give fuck if you don’t.
&& as for everyone else, half of you only have something to say when it’s convenient for you, or I have or can access something you want. DONE. && the other half (or should I say other one, cuz I’m talking about 4people) I thought was my friend, but clearly your not if the only time you attempt ANY contact with me is when you think you’re on to some new drama. All in all, the point? I’m a caring person (unfortunately) so it takes quite a lot to get me here. But you wanted it, you pushed me to it me and apparently some of you expected it… This is ME giving a few of you what you want.
