As much as I may hate to admit the effect some of my past relationships have had on me, the truth remains. Smh. Sitting in my room around 5:30 am this morning working on my designs and researching, I realized I needed to make room for a design folder on my computer. Going through and organizing already exsisting photos and documents I came across my “Blackberry Curve” file, the file I saved just incase I ever lost my phone (which I did). Lol. The file was full of photos and videos I had taken my senior year of highschool and the that summmer, friends, teachers, bbq’s and classroom conversations. But my heart stopped when I came across the file that read “5-28-10”, full of just as many videos and photos we’d taken together that summer after highschool. I admit looking at those pictures and rewatching those videos that once made me so happy did the exact opposite almost 2 years later.
I realize now that I was wrong, I was so excited about senior year and having fun and thinking about college and turning 18 and starting my first business. && in all of about 6 months I wen’t from that to letting my world revolve around a guy. I let go of what was important to me to focus on how happy I could make him. I know it wasn’t right, but I was 17, and in the midst of all its stupidity and niaveness…I was happy. And as absolutely crazy as I going to sound right now, I hate him for taking that from me.
I’m happy now, Im older more mature, wiser and with my first business launching in 2012 Im more excited than ever… I know I had to learn my lesson, and Im happy I did because Im a better person for it, I just hate that he had to be the one to teach me that lesson because that’s how I’ll always remember him.
